Thursday, May 19, 2011

May...she will stay...

...with all due honor to Simon and Garfunkel.

Some years ago I came to the realization that I had a sort of Seasonal Affective Disorder. Just the reverse of what's considered normal.

Such a surprise.

Others find the dull gray of Winter problematic. I recall endless weeks of overcast skies in Ireland (and that was Summer! - I'm joking, honest.) My father found Novembers and beyond...difficult.

For me, it's May.

I had noted over the years an unaccountable melancholy that colored my Mays. It took me a number of years to puzzle out the why of it. I finally labeled it "homesickness". Not, I assure you, for a place. "Home" for where I am. And very much where I am now.

But homesick nonetheless...for people.

May is a month of birthdays. In general I imagine that's true. In specific, it is very much so for my family. A sister, a father, a mother - this very day, a daughter, a son and she who regards me as her twin, and I her mine - the Lady C.

That's a lot of people, none of whom are here, here where my home is.

And so, an unaccountable melancholy - not so "unaccountable", I suppose.

To help, I turn my face to the blue sky and warm sun of California - and remember.  It helps...somewhat.

And so, Peggy, on this day you are thought of. You are not forgotten.


  1. At least you've identified the reason. Sometimes that helps. Peace to you, Kevin. They remember you, too.

  2. Sending you positive thoughts and good energy, Kevin! *hugs*

  3. Thanks to you both for your comments. Always appreciated.